A New Size

I have always been petite - short and thin. I was usually not emaciated or anything, I had curves, but I was thin. (I say usually bc my senior year in high school I was a little emaciated!) I am now in my mid-twenties and will have to realize that I will never again be a 0 or maybe even never ever again be a 2. Now you might say skinny b*tch shut up. Well today, my sister, who always had weight issues, told me I shouldn't wear a bikini at the weight I am now. I went from a 0/2 to a 6, sometimes 4 depending on how it runs. Now you might not think this is very big, but I am like 5 feet tall. I like to say I'm 5'1", but I'm really a little under that. And I have a small frame/bone structure. My body was not made to be bigger than a 4 without looking chunky.

I tried to put on that goldish skirt in my e-pic up there (the "family" picture) but I couldn't zip it up! That skirt was expensive, I never thought that a year and a half later I wouldn't be able to zip it up.

Its hard going from a 2 to a 6. From everything looking great to people telling me to make sure to hide my tummy. My hips are huge, on the plus side so are my boobs, but they are just balancing out my hips and thighs.

I guess I am an "adult" size now, but I wish I wasn't. I was fine with a 4, I was curvy. I wasn't super thin and it was still okay.

I guess its not so much the size, but the fact that now that I'm married it seems that I have "let myself go". It is probably the fact that we don't go weekly grocery shopping and we haven't really cooked at home except for when DH occasionally grills for football games and that wasn't every weekend. I was also much more sedentary this semester, barely walked. Maybe I should park farther away from campus next semester so I can walk! I also didn't eat breakfast as much as I should have.

I should do the wii fit again, but I am kind of scared at how fat I'm going to be!!! Wish me good luck I'll have to deal with that tomorrow.