I passed!!

This week I was freaking out because the Bar results were coming out on Friday.

Friday came and I set my alarm so I would wake up early. I woke up a little before 9 am and got out of bed. I got my husband to leave for a while because I wanted to be alone. When he got his results, he made sure I was out of the house, so I did the same to him.

By 9:30, I decided I was able to look. I went to the site and of course nothing was loading or coming up. I kept clicking and kept getting nothing. After about an hour, I finally got the fail list to load and I didn't see my name on it. I e-mailed my husband to tell him that barring unexpected circumstances, it didn't appear that I had failed. I knew then that either way I didn't have to take the whole thing over again, so it was good news.

The next was the conditioned list. It was taking forever again and finally the conditioned list came up and my name wasn't on it. I still wasn't convinced I passed and knew I needed to see my name on the pass list to confirm.

All of a sudden I hear my husband's car pulling up at our house. I was not happy. He opened the door and I told him I didn't know yet and asked why he was here. My phone was off and he couldn't get in touch with me, so he couldn't take it anymore and came home. I asked him to go in the other room so I could still sort of be by myself.

The pass list finally came up and I found my name. I looked for my friend's name and it wasn't there. She had told me her fake name, so I looked at the conditioned list and it was there. She has a job so I didn't feel too bad for her lol and I knew I would not have been upset if I had conditioned.

I asked my husband if it in fact was my name and he said yes. I was pretty numb and so many things ran through my mind. Jonathan called my Dad to tell him and my Mom called me when I turned my phone back on.

Both my Mom and my Granny screamed when I told them. I also talked to my sister, my Gamma and my Uncle who is also my Godfather. All of them were really excited and seemed more excited than I was.

It still doesn't seem real and is kind of bittersweet because now I have to find a job so I can pay my loans. I want a job and I've always wanted to be an attorney, but the economy is making it very difficult for young attorneys to find jobs.

I doubt it will seem real until I am sworn in, but maybe not even then. I really hope to get to sign my first pleading with my Bar roll number on it soon, but we shall see. That will definitely make it real and be really exciting!

Wish me luck in finding a legal job!