Babies

What really sucks about not having a real job (besides not being able to pay all my own bills) is not being able to have a baby. Obviously the bills thing goes hand in hand. (I'm not making light of this bills thing, it's just not the focus of the post and won't be because I think its inappropriate).

Babies are expensive. Yes, I know you can never be financially ready for a baby. However, there are stages of financial readiness and freedom and we aren't even in the theater.

I hate being at this point in my life and not having started my career yet. It pushes everything else back. I had originally planned to wait two years after law school, well have a job for two years then start trying. That does not seem like it will have. If I still want to wait until I have a stable job for two years, I fear that I will never have a baby.

Yes, being unemployed and underemployed has taught me a lot, but really how much more do I have to learn before things will pick up? Before its my turn to have a baby.

Before, I wanted this great, amazing career, but now all I want is a decent job so that I can start my life. Which really means so that I can start our family.